Mad Changes

I've been spending a lot of time lately on Land I'm not familiar with. Or at least, not as familiar as I was with my last known place. I suppose that's to be expected.

This is not the Land of my blood ancestors -- and yet it's the only home I've known. So, I sort of drift -- not dropping stakes for very long anywhere, if at all.

There was a time though, in my adult life, when I returned to the Land I grew up on and mostly settled, as much as a person like me can while considering how one safely moves through a global pandemic.

I invested a lot of time, energy, money, love, and devotion into tending to this small pocket of woods -- the place where all of my animals live too.

My adoration for them overflows from my heart.

I thought, even with so much uncertainty in the world, that the space I had there and the relationships I nurtured were sustainable.

And I was wrong.

If I'm truly honest with myself, I knew it couldn't last. Not with my views, way of life, and choices in complete contradiction with the want to simply 'not rock the boat'.

I didn't fit, and I wasn't willing to put myself in a box for anyone, and certainly would not 'fall in line' with a certain way of being. I have made hope for a very different future.

Early December I was thrust out of that space, off again in old, tired Ele the Elephant van. Forced to abandon the animals and Land to another. Feeling a bit salty for being the one who has to pay or be punished for my own growth. Change can be a very good thing.

But that's my bit to deal with. And I'm not living the life of someone else.

Still breaks my heart to leave my critters, knowing there is no way I can explain things to them.

So, drifting.

The future looks radically different and that's really exciting.

I'm thankful for friends and found-family that embrace and support me in what I feel is the right thing to do, or the right way to be. I've been able to come and go safely, experiencing wintertime #CamperLife by the sea, trying to get to know this new Land, and these new animals. Trying to make friends with the birds, knowing that they can fly away whenever they please. It's been a shift, for sure. Figuring out ways to protect my heart without isolating myself (even further, haha). And it's slow and steady. Each morning routine is special and unhurried -- boiling water for washing and coffee (or tea!), and warming up the space to get some work done. Walking red mud paths and eyeing all the tracks of the different visitors of the Land. Watching the Full Moon rise and light up the whole space. The stars. This mixture of old and familiar, and new and strange. As far as business goes? I'll update on that soon. There are so many things I plan to change about operating my business in this area. Ways I don't want to be in order to have "success", and systems I don't want to conform to, or work within. More on that later. Keep your ear to the ground ;) Xx H #EarthAlly #change #growth #mikmaki #earth #SmallBusiness #birds #earth #sea #ocean #EastCoast #winter #nature #land #free #drifting #VanLife #Pine #trees #plants #animals #tracks #visitors #dismantle #NewWays #grow #RoadLessTravelled #wind #moon #sun